Change is not always bad...

hey...

2004-07-29T15:09:19Z

hey i'm prob not gonna write in this over the school year cuz i'll be busy so i'm just telling ya... luv ya lots! linz

HEY!!

2004-06-17T17:53:05Z

hey i just got back!! it was so much fun! thanx guys for telling me to spend the night... my counselor was robin confer! RoBiN CoNfEr!!!! man i wish i could go again lol well keep in touch! linz

soccerrox913 @ 2004-05-09T17:10:00

2004-05-09T21:13:30Z

guess wut?? u-16 saturn is having a WUSA player coach it!!! wouldn't it be cool if my mom let me try out for that team... i would love to know her thoughts about my game! anyways... happy mother's day to all your mothers! school's ALMOST over!!!! only 3 more really hard weeks with every teacher loading their students down with hw and then it's finally over! i don't think i'd mind school if i didn't get hw... too bad lol well i'm gonna go do something... idk watch johnny depp or go swimming or something ttyl!

hey

2004-04-24T02:34:47Z

hey!!! guess wut??? i'm going to the beach tomorrow! no more soccer tan for me! no sir ree! lol oh yeah i'm going to that soccer thing overnight! yay! so if i'm alone, at least i took the chance and won't regret anything right? of course hehe so thanx for the advice laura! and janet! and everyone else i asked at school lol well 20 days of school left... i kinda don't want summer to start but i don't want school... kinda wierd. how about no hw ? i'd be completely satisfied with that! and i might be able to go to O2 next wed. yay but i guess that might be bad since last wed. our pastor lectured us on participation hmmm yea that prob. wouldn't be too great hehe well i'm gonna go pack! YAAAAAAAAAY! ttyl!
*that was a good convo summer! obviously we haven't been talking enough lately ;-)

HELP ADVICE PLEASE ;-)

2004-03-08T21:24:01Z

hey everyone... please reply to this with opinions. i'm going to a soccer camp while i stay at my grandma's house (in tallahassee) cuz it was a christmas present... idk if i should stay overnight for the ...4 days or just go during the day... cuz i don't know anyone there. please reply! i need advice. thanx linz

soccerrox913 @ 2004-03-07T21:14:00

2004-03-08T02:20:38Z

I'm so happy! i got to sleep in today and it was awesome!!! anyways... yea today we won our game woopee! wut sux is i worked on shooting and volleying for hrs. and when i had a chance to use it... i didn't make it... it hit the post! can you believe that! grrrrr then the next one went out. and then a corner kick... the defender kicked it out in the center, i kicked it barely and it hit the line... didn't go past it darnit! lol geez bad luck today lol. then gina made a goal and i said something to her about it but now i'm thinking it might have come off rude. oops but yea... anyways. last wave was so much fun! the bands were great! more people should have come b/c it was worth the money!!!!! well i better go study for spanish... i've been procrastinating it but i guess it's getting pretty late. :-( ttyl! can't wait till spring break! only FOUR DAYS!

soccerrox913 @ 2004-03-05T21:55:00

2004-03-06T03:00:35Z

hey again. lent started and i'm getting so bored cuz i gave up aim. hmmmm..... it's finally the weekend woohoo... tomorrow is last wave and i can't wait! yay it's gonna be so much fun! and i have a game AND i might get to play right mid instead of center sweetness! yes this weekend is awesome. ... anyway/who hehehe i read a book call the prayer of jabez and ever since, i have started reading the bible and have become so much more disciplined thanx for letting me borrow it janet! and i saw passion and that was really moving. if you haven't seen it yet get ur butt in the theater! it's really worth ur time. well.... can't wait till spring break! ttyl linz

soccerrox913 @ 2004-02-19T17:11:00

2004-02-19T22:14:41Z

hey... omg i'm so pissed right now! sorry i know i only talk about bad things on here but this is where i get my steam out... anyways... someone just wrote something aimed toward me... BIGTIME in an email and then SENT IT TO ME! that really is annoying and stupid and GRRRRRR u know, you think some people are ur friends and then you realize you don't really have that many! anyways... sorry had to say that... awww yes steam is... well ...almost gone i'll ttyl ...bye

ahhhh delish

2004-02-15T02:09:50Z

hey... i'm writing in my journal cuz janet told me too lol... hmm happy v-day everyone! my fam and i went to hops... but logan sent a text message on my mom's work phone and my mom's boss is a complete jerk and my mom blew up and started yelling at her i felt so bad... don't blame my mom tho it is that stupid boss's fault i mean she will get in a lot of trouble over a stupid text message just cuz he's so mean... ! yep i had my soccer lesson today too... but it went very badly. i did horrible i practiced um idk wut it's called but when the ball is falling from very high like straight down or almost s.d. shooting the ball and it's hard for me to get the timing right so i'd kick it and miss and it'd hit my leg or ankle or fall and bounce back up and hit me in the butt lol so embarassing !!! but yea i have bruises on my leg and ankle just from missing the ball hahaha that's how horrible i was! and i couldn't do this other thing but i can't teach myself cuz i really just don't understand HOW to do it... but yea enough about that... i really wanna go to the movies and see big fish !!! and over spring break my mom says we can prob. go to the beach and i can get some other families to come and we could stay like one night in a hotel! how fun would that be?!?! well i think i'm gonna go to bed i'm really tired and i have to go to church + work in the nursery tomorrow morning... so i'll ttyl! HAVE A GREAT DAY! :-) luv ya!

<3

2004-02-08T23:59:12Z

i didn't mean wut i said before... not last response but one before that... forget part of it... unless you don't know wut i'm talking about then it doesn't matter... i realize how stupid i am for wut i thought and i'm over it. no more past; i need to focus on the present... HAVE A GREAT DAY everyone! luv ya!

Laura poems >:-/

2004-02-08T23:55:24Z

hey laura! the email didn't work so i guess i'll just post the poems on here... thanx so much for this! test is thursday so i have to study too before then... wink love you!! THANK YOU my grade won't totally suck maybe b/c of this test...
here's the list

* means i really need help on it -means i haven't read it ^ means kinda get it ~means i know it pretty well (PRETTY well... since i'm prob. wrong anyways) u know you love my key hehehhe that would be exact rhyme right there ;-)

1. -Alfred, Lord Tennyson The Charge of the Light Brigade
2. -Anonymous Lord Randal
3. -John Masefield Sea Fever
4. ^Theodore Roethke Child on top of the Greenhouse
5. -Nikki Giovanni Knoxville, Tennessee
6. -Carl Sandburg Lost
7. -Robert Francis The Base Stealer
8. ^Langston Hughes Dreams
9. *Edgar Allan Poe The Bells
10. ^Walt Whitman I Hear America Singing
11. ~Robert Frost The Road Not Taken
12. *Yusef Komunyakaa Slam, Dunk & Hook
13. ^Lillian Morrison The Spearthrower
14. ~Naomi Shihab Nye Shoulders
15. *Wm. Stafford Fifteen
16. ~Paul Lawrence Dunbar Sympathy
17. ~Maya Angelou Caged Bird
18. **Emily Dickinson We never know how high we are STUPID
19. *Lewis Carroll Jabberwocky
20. ^ Victor Hernandez Cruz Problems with hurricanes (is there a deeper meaning to this one?)
21. *****Shakespeare The Seven Ages of Man
22. ^Edna St. Vincent Millay An Ancient Gesture
23. -Margaret Atwood Siren Song

sigh.. help

2004-02-03T01:01:05Z

hey... i am so stressed right now... in school, i am getting UNDESERVED bad grades in rish stupid idiot i hope you know i HATE you and i know u hate me cuz i did not deserve that F... AAAAAAAH! ok i feel better now... and fields i got another zero. and in biology, haha i must have a really bad grade there cuz i bs that class. so i guess my progress report will have... hmmmm 4 A's, 2 B's and maybe a C humph not good and in soccer i am never good enough... there's no time to get better if i have such bad grades. and there's other problems that i don't wish to go further into... uh if anyone wants to study together... or hang out... yea *NEW JOHNNY DEPP MOVIE COMING! YEA BABY!* g2g mom's going to bed... good night

:-)

2004-01-30T21:28:29Z

Hey! i'm going on a retreat in... hmmm 90 min. woohoo! only part that sux is i can't sleep in there and i'll be doing my hw there too humph lol omg it is so much easier in school now that i don't have soccer everyday. i think i'm gonna get a B in biology tho and that's annoying me... wut is everyone taking next year!! tell me! write me... w/e u know with valentine's around the corner it really kicks me in the butt everytime i see a heart or anything... it sux except for the whole candy part :-) i miss you! <3 haha i said it but you know i'm sure you won't read it so it's all good and that's why i said it anyways lol unless you do read it then that was really stupid of me! lol anyways i'm blabbing now... gotta go pack! oh and if anyone wants to study those poems with me and haley and tell me wut you think about them since i suck at poetry then come please lol wendy and steph... i'm praying for you guys! i hope your situations get better... love you all! gotta go pack... c ya

soccerrox913 @ 2004-01-27T18:20:00

2004-01-27T23:24:10Z

hey! i just got 3 new cds from some friends and i'm loving them! :-) thanx so much janet and amanda! u know... i'm in so much better of a mood now cuz i found out that i'm not the only one who has life problems haha i'm not alone anymore! i guess i never was but i thought i was. there's so much going on and i don't know wut to do anymore. where's stephanie when you need her? hehehe aww but she has her own problems to deal with... poor her... bff steph! well if anyone needs someone to listen to their problems i'm here! and ur not alone! i'll ttyl! dinner time yum! luv ya!

blah

2004-01-22T02:44:26Z

hey... i went to o2 and it was a lot of fun... i wish i could go there instead of my church b/c my church is so boring and i don't learn anything there. but i'm almost done with confirmation which makes me wanna stick it out. well i did have fun but now i'm in a sucky mood. either people are being rude to me or i'm just being grouchy. idk which one. gosh my life is so messed up right now and i hate it. ttyl. bye

soccerrox913 @ 2004-01-02T21:22:00

2004-01-03T02:32:54Z

hey... fsu lost :-( kinda stupid that we lost all because of an illegal substitution and cuz our kicker sux... poor guy! can't wait to see grace, haley, emily... and everyone else play at halftime at the sugar bowl! i hope they show it on tv :-) anyways my family just left (they came down for new year's.) and omg my grandma gave me a HUGE christmas present!! drumroll.... she's paying for an overnight soccer camp!! that's like $500! it's at fsu so when i go up to her house over the summer i get to go to the camp... the only bad part is that i won't know anyone... hopefully there will be other people who didn't come with their teams :-/ or it will totally SUCK but i'm just being pessimistic huh... tomorrow's my lesson with ferron so i'm excited about that. i hope that i learn stuff from him or it will just be money wasted... i don't want it to be just practice i want to learn new stuff and learn wut i'm doing wrong. u know it really sux that break is almost over. i would quit school if i could and do independent study just because i really really hate getting up early humph well hope everyone's break went well... ttyl!

hey! happy holidays!

2003-12-28T23:36:33Z

hey! happy holidays everyone!!! omg christmas was good to me this year... :-) i got a dvd player for my room and 3 dvds that i've been wanting for a while... and best of all 5 soccer lessons oh yea baby! wish that i didn't have to get those as a present but w/e... hopefully i'll improve and get something out of them. anyways i really wanna go to the movies so haley and i were talking and if anyone wants to go we're thinking tuesday night is sounding good... tell us wut movie u wanna see we still don't really know... well hope everyone has an awesome break! see ya back at school! ooh yea and summer and i are prob. going to lyman this week to work on our soccer skills and do some sprints call if you wanna come the more the better! ttyl! luv ya!

soccer

2003-11-08T13:24:38Z

hey guys! guess wut! i got this really cool invitation to a sportstour ... well tryouts for it and they play outside the US! isn't that awesome? yea but my mom won't let me and it pisses me off soooo much! i mean... if you get INVITED don't you wanna take advantage of that? i wanna play out there and learn new stuff, it would make me so much better! but nooo even if i offered to use all my bank money and my b.day money to pay for it. it's not safe? w/e! everyone else that has gone was safe! why wouldn't i be? gosh soo annoying! anyways lyman soccer is sucking for me right now... i sucked at practice last week so i'm gonna be a benchwarmer how fun. i'd rather not go to a game than sit and watch them play! goodness! i'll get wut? 5 min playing time? but i don't wanna play jv a cuz they don't really play at a high level yet like the whole passing thing... they all just hog the ball and wait till the other team gets it there's no plays and strategies so i guess i'm stuck warming the bench. i've been practicing so much! but it doesn't seem to be helping... :-( maybe idk i guess i'll just keep trying and prove that i don't sit on the bench! haha this morning i went to get my permit bright and early... we got there and they're closed! hahaha next weekend i guess lol!!! ** oh yea if anyone knows anybody that went on a sports tour outside of the usa for soccer... PLEASE give me ur/her/his phone # cuz my mom thinks it's a bunch of sales people and it's NOT! please i need someone to tell her that it's not a scam cuz she won't believe me thanx! ttyl!

hello

2003-10-25T03:57:56Z

hey! the homecoming game was AWESOME! so much action! t.d. after t.d. cici's was fun after too... omg i can't believe logan beat me in air hockey! lol!! guys we have to get one of those air hockey tables... lol we'd be amused forever! hehe! anyways i'm kinda mad about something but i know you guys will think i'm a selfish snob if i say it, and i feel bad for thinking it in the first place, but i can't help it! it really sux when i have bad thoughts and i know they're bad but i can't get rid of them you know? well homecoming dance tomorrow and my b.day! fun fun! ttyl! luv ya! *i was really mean to my fam at the game... i'm sorry if any of you noticed it... idk what i was doing

:-(

2003-10-11T22:21:52Z

i miss my music :-( i want to listen to chevelle sooo bad right now it sux so bad when i'm mad and i can't listen to any bad music i turn on the radio and hear all happy lalala music... humph ttyl have a nice fall break everyone!!!

yay! fall break!

2003-10-10T01:21:02Z

hey peeps! it's finally fall break! yaaaay! oooh! tonight i had a soccer game and it was under the lights... oh my goodness it was sooo fun! the 1st half sucked cuz we weren't playing for fun but in the 2nd half we started making plays and calling and shooting.... oooh so fun wish we could go back and do the 1st half over. why we yell at eachother i don't know.... frustration i guess. haha *funny moment!just so you know it is much easier to head balls if they're coming from an angle not straight up and one was coming straight down well i misjudged it and went for it so it hit the ground, bounced up, and hit me in the face! haha it hit my tooth ouchie! haha *another funny moment! hehehe i was going for the ball and this girl kicked it and it slammed into my cheek... it kinda feels cool now i'm getting used to getting hit in the head by the ball! lol anyways.... john wanted to stay and leave for north carolina on sat. cuz he wants to sell a house sat. but mom said we made plans a long time ago to leave on sat. well i personally wanna leave on sun. so i can play 2 games in a tournament so mom's exploding now, all moody, and getting mad about every thing! soooo annoying! i mean, one day! no big deal! we were gonna stop at someone's house anyways and waste time so how about not stop and just make it up on sunday?! well yea that's everything... i'll ttyl! luv ya! *wut are you guys doing for fall break? *haley ur so bad! skipper! hehehehe thanx for walkin to the gym with me

hmmm... thinking not often this happens :-)

2003-10-08T01:19:33Z

hey! i've been thinking... since the 40 day challenge started, i have changed greatly and positively in my relationship with god and i encourage everyone to try it! there's a book that says to do something everyday and it has helped me so much. and i'm reading another book and if you're just starting with christianity or you don't feel close to god, james is a great book in the bible! i just read it and it really shows the basics and helps you start out easy. i'm so glad that i took personal fitness because i wouldn't have done FCA or see you at the pole or the 40 day challenge if it weren't for ms. coleman and i'm so grateful for her telling me to go. anyways mom has been in such a bad mood tonight and i haven't said a word... i'm finally remembering the bible... james 3:9-10 tame ur tongue... well, mom has been so impatient and mean tonight and no one did anything to her! idk wuts on her mind but i hope that she overcomes w/e stress she's having and i guess the best i can do for now is pray for her... humph sux that i have to deal with her mood till then lol!well i hope to see more of you at the FCA meetings! ooh yea! if anyone wants to come to church with me tomorrow (wed. night)... it's gonna be fun! we're not doing anything christiany haha i made up a word lol we're watching a video (i'm hoping it is how to lose a guy in 10 days but i bet the guys will overrule lol) and we're gonna have popcorn, pizza, soda.... junk food galore! haha gets me there lol tell me if you wanna come! i'll ttyl! luv ya! guess wut!! i passed the AR test! phew that's a load off my mind hehehehehe

bad soccer weekend!!! :-(

2003-10-06T02:18:09Z

hey! well this weekend my team played two games... both we got sucky refs who made really really bad calls and we played horribly both games too! AND... the USA lost against Germany! oh my goodness... i can't believe it! well yea so my weekend has pretty much sucked because of the whole soccer thing... i wish we could've beat that team... i'm actually embarassed to say we lost to them! the first team on sat... not black sheep well i'm gonna get back to watching soccer on t.v. cuz who knows maybe it will improve my playing!! i'll ttyl! hope you're having a good 3-day weekend! yikes i still have an essay to write and 200 more pages to read... haha w/e! ttyl! luv ya all!

hello...

2003-09-30T01:22:51Z

hey! taking a break from my reading... haha i hate AR i need a lot of points real soon and i have about 500 more pages to read! hehe! well who cares...besides me... lol i've been thinking... i complain and beg way too much! complaining doesn't do any good lindsey! and begging, poor you guys, if you're a close friend i prob. beg from you constantly and i know you must get sick of it so i've decided to give up coke along with music for these 40 days. for 1 i won't beg as much 2 i won't owe anyone money lol 3 i won't always be poor and 4 coke is bad for me anyways i need to be drinking water cuz of soccer! i mean last practice, not counting tonight's, i almost fainted... by the end of the scrimmage, i knew that haley was sick of my complaining sorry haley! so i kept my mouth shut but i couldn't see anything and everything was blurry, i mean i went for the ball and missed it by like 3 feet lol! i was so close to just calling my mom to come get me and let me lay down in the car and go home!!! so.. no more coke for me and you guys have to help me with it! don't give me money no matter how much i beg and just be mean to me and stuff lol! ooh yea if anyone wants to stay afterschool on fridays (right afterschool.. before band) please let me know i can't stay unless someone else does with me and i wanted to run laps, sprint, and work on my ball handling skills and shot. please please with a cherry on top let me know if you can!!! please do it! just think how much more in shape you'll be for tryouts!!! :-) hehe and i wanted to walk to milwee one day so if anyone is up for that either... and carlos... never send any of my conversations to people. i consider that private and at least want you to ask me! that was really rude and backstabbing of you to try and turn me against her and then show it to her! i mean... it's all forgotten and forgiven but please never send any of our convos to anyone without my consent!!! :-) well back to my AR book... o joy! i'll ttyl! luv ya!

grr sigh

2003-09-27T01:33:24Z

hey everyone... just got back from dinner and picking up logan from a birthday party... i wanna have a party so bad this year! who thinks i should? everyone right? definitely! i need a party! i never get one! and i'm so poor that it would bring me out of debt! wow! i bought my first coke today with my own money... even though it was my mom's lol! but i only owe one person wow go me anyways... sitting here and I CAN'T BREATHE! grr cuz of stress or w/e the doctor said lol it happened last year for a while and then went away over the summer and now it's back and worse... this isn't the thing from caffeine haley lol where i'm like hold on gotta breathe... but after running sprints and long distance it's so hard to breathe haha wouldn't it be funny if i just passed out during a soccer game? that'd be pretty cool! well now that you all know my problem lol any suggestions for 1. party 2. ways of begging? lol ttyl! luv ya! *i beg too much lol sorry guys! always begging for $ poor you !